Listening to God

Had an awesome time praying with Brittney this morning. We've been doing a lot of praying together this week over some upcoming decisions. Can I just say it is AMAZING to have a roommate that you can pray with? I mean REALLY pray with- not polite before-Sunday-brunch prayers, but face-on-the-floor-please-help-me-with-this-struggle-and-show-me-what-to-do-prayers. If you don't have a prayer partner like this, I highly recommend it.

We read some Scripture and then did some listening prayer. Listening prayer is sort of new to me but I'm a big fan. Basically you read some Scripture, ask God a question and then you just quiet your mind and listen for at least 20 minutes or so. Keep a journal and write down whatever comes into your mind. Sometimes He answers, sometimes He doesn't. Sometimes He changes your question.

This morning my heart wanted to know about my husband. I say my husband because I do in faith believe that God knows who my husband is. He's already ordained it. It's just His timing as to when this person will actually become my husband. I know He has it all planned out.

The problem is I'm pretty impatient and not a huge fan of waiting. The other problem is that my biological clock has been in overdrive since I turned 29. It is a difficult thing to literally feel like your body is in a war with your spirit and screaming at you "WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR."

So, this leads to a lot of questions. Why is it so difficult? Why is it taking so long?

So that's what I asked, albeit phrased a bit more politely. And this is what He gave me.

"Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.
Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord, trust in Him, and He will act.
He will bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday.
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him; fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way, over the man who carries out evil devices."
Psalm 37:3-7

I realize this passage wasn't written about husbands or dating, but it IS about trust and patience, and really, that's what I need more than anything.

I wanted to know about my circumstances, but I think God wanted to remind me that He's more concerned about my heart. He wanted to remind me that I can trust Him, in whatever circumstance. And that was highly comforting.

So I'll continue waiting, realizing that the goal is not to change my circumstances but to trust in the Lord, delight in the Lord, and commit my way to the Lord, regardless of any circumstance. Because that kind of faith cannot be shaken.